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No joy, excitement, feelings of closeness or love, music stopped making me feel anything, jokes weren't as funny, etc... AND I gained a lot of weight. I tried a few times to get off it but withdrawals sent me right back to taking them again. 2 years ago I was able to get off it for 3 months but eventually fell into a spiral and I started taking them again.